I have never been afraid of anything in my life.
I am so unbelievably scared of: moving halfway across the world, living in a huge city, living by myself, being away from everyone I know and can run to for a hug whenever I need one––and let’s be real, I love my hugs.
So now I realize I’ve never been scared before right now. I am ridiculously afraid.
Which is what makes me want to go even more! I am more likely to do something I’m afraid of, for the pure joy of conquering my fear, than to take the easy way out. I like to prove that I am capable, if only to myself.
It is currently 9pm today.
It is 10am tomorrow in South Korea.
So I love “Friends.” Best show ever. I would love to have friends like that–friends who fight and act ridiculous and date and break up. Maybe minus the babies.
But when I think about it, I don’t see myself ever staying in one place long enough to keep friends like that. I get bored too easily. I barely made it through 3 1/2 years of college, and I got to leave for the summers. I’m too restless. I can’t be tied down or all I do is look for a way out.
I want to keep being afraid.
What are you afraid of?